Hello! Greetings from Rio!
Yesterday I was meditating on the feeling of gratitude and came across some questions and insights. First, let me describe what I did.
Before meditating, I was feeling a bit tense and "dry", as if my emotional cup wasn't full - and this was obvious due to my shallow breathing. So I sat down and focused on the love I feel for people in my life (it wasn't a mental thing like "I am grateful for *fill in the blank*", but just immersing myself in the love).
Beginning with the "easy ones" like my lover, sister and very close friends and then people that caused me more troubles than fortunes, so to speak. In a few seconds I started to feel - obviously - much more open and allowing. Also, my breathing became fuller and slower and I felt closer to Presence. Now, the questions:
1) When we concentrate on the love we feel for people/animals in our lives, how genuine is that? I mean, is it close to Universal Love or just an emotional bubble? Also, I don't know exactly the difference between feeling and emotion. Maybe there is already an article about that here in Openhand?
2) If I was feeling dry and closed before, is it because I had something to unveil? Or because the thoughts in my mind were of a lower vibration? This question leads to the next: by feeling gratitude, did I bypass/deny what I was supposed to feel at the moment or I just raised my vibration with new thoughts?
3) I noticed that in this state it's much easier to become aware of any contractions and low thoughts mirrored by external events. If the process of self-realization is all about softening into these contractions, by holding on to the feeling of gratitude in every moment I can walk the Path much faster, right?
Thank you *bye*